Date on Sunday

No advice needed really. Just wanted to put it out there. Meeting a girl tomorrow at 11 am and we are taking the bus for about an hour to the big city. We are planning on meeting up with a second girl who is also a mutual friend. The second girl is the girl I am seeing. I thought a reunion of sorts sounded like a good idea. Me and the first girl are just friends and are hardly even flirting other than the occassional friendly hug etc. The second girl seemed a little insecure about this new situation and maybe a little jealous even. She got no reason to be. If she dont know that I am interested in her at this point then I guess she is quite insecure. Not seeing that as a huge red flag yet. I am going to kiss her. Tomorrow probably but it depends on her. I have made up my mind and heart. I dont want to regret not making a move. When a good situation presents itself I will go for it. Where it goes from there I dont know. She is a good friend and I value that. If it doesnt work out between us then I can just move on with my life while we stay friends.

 

Just went with the flow today. I was quite bold but I didnt find a moment private enough to go for a kiss. Think I am going out with only her next time. It was also super hot today so I got pretty sweaty too. Not my sexiest day. She confessed that she struggle with anxiety. I think she have said it before but now I understand some of her actions. Whenever she crossed her arms, I hugged her. She loosened up a bit and she looked down when locking eyes several times. I touched her face and lips actually. She got pretty perplexed and seemed to get turned on. The closest I got to a kiss was when I made her hold her arm on my shoulder and locked eyes for several seconds. I could have kissed her there but it just seemed too public and I was quite sweaty from the summer heat. So next time it is. Will have a date with just the two of us somewhere more private. Next weekend probably. I got more information today and I have no doubt she is into me. The question is how much and that is a whole different question than before and easier to work with.

 

Not a Christian myself but I hope you find what you are looking for God can mean so many things. If you are truly looking for "God" then try to find it trough silence or looking within. I believe in God but probably in a different way than most Christians. God has been such a misinterpreted term for so many years that I rarely even use the term anymore. When you find God, you just know it. There is no need to even use the term anymore.

 

Thanks. There is only one way to find out really. I am not the kind of person to ask before going for a kiss. I trust that my instincts are pretty accurate and if she rejects me then it probably have more to do with with her not being ready for whatever reason. I am not always sure myself exactly how into her I am. I think I also need to kiss her to figure out for myself if I really want her or if we are just supposed to be friends.

 

I am not thinking that far ahead. I am not sure if forever is even realistic. None of us are really ready for kids. We have actually talked about it. Not that I would complain if it ever happened and I matured a bit on that front. She is very pretty and even her mom is pretty. I could envision being with her for a pretty long time as long as I dont discover some deal breakers down the line. But I cant know how she is in a relationship until I try it out. I may meet her this weekend. She was unsure if she was home or not but more often than not, she seems to cancel her plans to hang out.