Hey, Calm, thanks for the tip on reading The Book of Pook. I looked it up and posted advice from it in my journal. Congratulations on your super streak, Amukadi8, and what a fun powerhouse your life has become!
I Just want too say I really like your posts Amukad.because for some reason your easy too relate too and I'm sure others as well. I just started reading these posts three days ago and already they have brought me the sense of hope and encouragement or predestined vision of my own potential.....in many ways I see the glimmer of a life I once had by the one you are living now and I want it back and know it is not too late ....that I once was very happy and much self disciplined and happy as you. My situation in a nutshell and withoutba keyboard but a long typed andriod tap out lol...is ive wasted at least 12 years in an ever ending cycle that i tool me all this time too figure out that the poor lack of mental health abd self esteem all arose from tje porn addiction sex addiction which rewired me and took away my self respect and esteem tgus setting me up for a downward spiral and waste of my human potential growth and development.......as we are not meant to get instant gratification as that brings us too loser status in this world.... I am currently 5 months without porn and 2 months without masturbation or orgasm which is 60 days. I want God's blessings so bad this time and have no more time too waste and now that im here to relapse and start over would be such a discouragement.....i finally. Have cravings i can now control and higher self-respect and discipline which carries over into all the other areas in my life such as diet, exercise, and relationships business and personal. I can finally sleep deeper...REM sleep ....get tired before bed ...feel inate primal instincts returning at times as a good barometer for healing....more confidence, drive, self control, less anxiety and depression.....with GREATER PEACE of mind. I was living in hell before this recovery. Praise God and I can't wait to be able to type this out on a keyboard as i can write much faster. Self improvement too build confidence is now my focus once more without distraction or the desperation and neediness of addiction. Never WANT TO GO BACK I AM FEELING MY HEALTH and former HEALTHLY SELF RETURN. Much more too add and share. I want too start my own thread of my story as well like Amukad and hope and pray too reach the 200 day Mark as well. God bless you all
Amukadi8 - how you doing boss man? Hope all is well. Let's keep fighting this good fight until it doesn't feel like a fight anymore! Peace and Blessings
I'm doing good sir, all is well. Yeah man my wifi came back and porn is just everywhere online, Its so easy too stumble, I tripped last night(Not RELAPSED), but I saw some adult humor, and site, but, then I thought to myself" What the fuck am I doing" why am I seeing a guy fuck a girl, getting of to this would be the most beta thing in the world, I need to get with real women, not get into this degeneracy and filth online. I swear to you I won't make that mistake again, I'm really trying to keep my thoughts pure, but, of course I think about dirty thoughts a lot. That's the consequences of being young, dumb and full of cum...I guess How have you been bro?
I've been thinking a lot about porn, masturbation and the power of women lately. It's crazy how deep the desire we men have to see them, touch them, f*ck them etc.. It's insane! I mean seriously, WHY do we act out like we do for their pleasure? A simple answer of "biology" does not suffice for me any longer. But I've also accepted that's just the way it is. But we must master this insatiable animal desire that is WITHIN us! We must build on our strengths and minimize our weaknesses, after all I believe victory begets more victory and failure breeds more failure. We must master through self control and emotional awareness to beat our bodies. The problem is not porn. The problem is us. Peace
Great job my friend! Would you mind answering a question? I am on day 82, and I am still having some severe brain fog and fatigue. Did you ever encounter these withdrawals at all? If so what day did they start to clear? Thanks
I can't say that I've experienced brain fog or fatigue out of the ordinary but I hear that's a common symptom. Withdrawl is just our weakness leaving our bodies. The fog will pass, along with everything else. My sexual nature is very high right now. Much like my friend Amukadi8, I find myself checking out some very borderline material online. This is a form of withdrawl as well. We must show ourselves approved to a Power greater than this disruptive desire. Call this Power whatever you want. But acknowledge its greater than the illusion we are tempted with.
Hi Deployer, just wondering if you could be experiencing those symptoms due to other causes such as work-related stress, or poor quality sleep instead of not fapping. cuz based on my personal experience, i have dust allergy and my nose gets clogged up easily at night when i sleep, which further caused general fatigue and brain fog. once i took medication, i could sleep much better and those symptoms were much reduced maybe you could consider these possible issues as possible causes of your symptoms btw awesome job on day 82!!!!!!
279 days in Boooooooom!! Having a lazy sunday, been watching japanese Anime and Horror films all day in my bedrom, made a private window on Seamonkey browser and went on a dirty website and found myself watching filth and degeneracy. I was about to relapse due to the frustration of having gone 279 days without ejaculation (& eating alot of sweet and spicy foods, having too many weekends days off gym and now college half term), but then I thought to myself: "What the fuck am I actually doing!, What would the NOFAP guys think, I'm not going back to being a mindless perverted fap crazed zombie again, I'm not gonna loose all my motivation and drive to change my life for a temporary Dopeamine DNA high, fuck that". So right now I'm gonna do some exercise- 30x10 upper body, core and leg workouts- 300 Press Up's, 300 Sit Up's, 300 Squats, some planche holds and 100 legraises...While listening to a self improvement podast in the back ground!! I swear I want to change!! Hornines and libido will not get the best of me, I am stronger than this, I know Ahmen, the most high is testing me. Thanks for all the support, stay Strong, live long!
Keep going man! You're so close to greatness, don't falter now! Be bold and you will reap the rewards! Most people can only dream of going on such a streak or even think about getting out of their comfort zone. Keep going.
281 days in . woke up really early today around 8 am,( had a weird dream that I was getting married to a women and when it came to say the wedding vows -I fucked up, lost the wedding ring and died of embrassement, then woke up) drank some water, made some porridge oats and green tea with 2 sugars, listened to a self improvement podcast on itunes, read up to page 61 of NO More Mr. Nice Guy then then 1 hour later I was hungry again, made a fried egg ( 2 flarge fresh eggs cooked in coconut oil, chili flakes and salted butter) and mustard and dill herring sandwich in toasted turkish bread, OH GODDAMN IT WAS GOOOOD! Now I was walking to the library, I saw this gorgeous light sking milk chocolate sista,we gave each other some looks, I was gonna approach her but then as I got closer I though she might probly be too young for me, she looked around 16... yeah it is legal here in Uk, but some of them chicks arn't really mature and refuse to take responsibility if you accidently....You now what i mean. I walked away then the thought in my head was WHY the fuck did'nt I approach her it wasthe perfect opportuity, i could have even ade a friend for life...Sometimes i'm such a dick head.. Now im in the library, studying exercise anatomy, muscle building and Occult mental power Thanks for the motivation bro, appreciate it deeply, made my day
Hey my bro's, 290 Day's in this long journey, going for 1year ...Booom! For all you guys and girls into physical fitness, keeping healthy and active- check out my Fitness Website's Blog to have a try at my new Outdoor park training regime: http://amukadi8.wix.com/amukadifitn...ore-bed-Routine/clfr/563a71bd0cf2c322b4945127 All you need is 1 hour of free time, a working body, a speed rope & an pull up bar; this workout can be done with a partner and are suitable for all levels of fitness. I hope everyone is evolving and growing, keeping healthy and warm, winter is here lets kick it in the nuts.... Stay Strong, Live long bro's.
292 Day's in, Boom! Vision is purpose, and when your purpose is clear so are your life choices. Vision creates faith and faith creates willpower. With faith there is no anxiety, no doubt - just absolute confidence. There are two undeniable truths in life: failure and success. Unfortunately, everyone experiences failures before achieving any amount of success. Life is ultimately a giant trial and error test-you never really get what you want without putting up with the things that you dont -Some guy on bodybuilding.com
Hey guys 298 Days in this amazing journey. So I've been Training my ass off hard this week in gym, Muay thai and Boxing, I feel I'v been making progress. I'm making a comeback from my previous loss in Muay thai/Kickboxing, gonna have my 4th fight on the 28th/11/2015. Recently I've just been so focused on getting my life in order, looking after family, finding work, start up loans, eating clean, staying away from porn and even when I get stuck in fantasy I somehow still find a way back to reality.... So last night 11pm I came back home from Muay Thai training at Fight For Peace Academy, ate some Carribean soup with cornbread and had a warm to cold shower; I layed down on my bed to sleep then after an hour of twisting a turning I somehow found my hand on my dick then started to fantasize.... I found myself jacking off thinking about sub-mental carnal desire, just pure untamed lustful thoughts about women I've been with, I then realized what I was doing and In my mind I said ..."What the fuck am I doing, Oh shiiiit, I just got stuck in a vivid fantasy". After realising this I literally jumped out of bed. Loool I conquered my lust and stopped myself from relapsing. Feels good, but, man that was too close. Stay strong, Live long. In NOFAP we trust!
Finally made it 300 days, been battling urges, restless ness and triggers with will power and determination, It probly gonna try and go for 1 year
Greetings brothers and sisters. The journey has been tough, Ive learned so much along the way. Now these days I'm thinking of going to University to study Exercise science and Strength and conditioning, while still doing personal training and martial arts on the side. Ive been training martial arts hard all year, I'm fighting for the fourth time on the 28th/11/15, Muay thai kickboxing, 3 x 1.5 mintes rounds, m still becoming my best self, ever expanding and growing. Thgank yo for all the support
