I've been in a deep Funk since I came back from Panama. I'm slowly slipping back to old habits which can culminate in pmo. It didn't happen yet but I've been experiencing chaser effects with drinking going out eating bad and smoking. I'm working on trying to beat this but this feeling for this girl is taking over and gets me sad and back to drinking my sorrows and working myself into a stale mate. I told myself that I have to come clean and just ask this girl from work out and tell her that I still have feelings for her . The problem is she won't let me talk to her about that . We talk all the time she asks for my perspective on all the things going on in her life and I feel like she trusts me and still gives me a look like shes attracted to me but I can't be for certain .. she liked me as much as 3 months ago for the better part of 1.5 yrs before that and nothing materialized bc of me and going at attacking pmo withiut her knowing. We got to talking about our feelings for one another and I humiliated her and I don't think she will forgive me for it. I think she's right for me and me her. I just have to get it off my chest. My concious is not clear and I need to clear it to either move forward with her or move on with my own life. I dont want to make her feel bad or corner her. I know I can't come on too strong. Part of me says to let it be its for the better. But I'm 35 yrs old and have to just come clean is what the other part says. It's s tough situation and I feel like if it's not favorable to me I have to movey life along and get s new job and not be subject to her every day .