Did I relapsed?

who defines your relapse is you, it all depends on what your goals were, if your goal was absolute discipline then you relapsed.

but I suggest that you don't cover yourself so much, if you want to get rid of the addiction, understand that there will be days when you will end up seeing it, but the important thing is not to complete the PMO.

 

For me it comes down to intention... If I opened a link or typed something in and hit play, that's a reset because I intended to do it.

If I'm watching a tv program and there's a couple kissing and one takes their top off, that's not my fault. Maybe i should have closed my eyes quicker. If I kept thinking about that image, that's a reset.

A relapse to me is when i keep on doing that action. I reset recently as i eatched 10 seconds of video. But then i let that reset become a relapse because i wasn't satisfied and kept on watching more, and worse stuff.

I do it this way because i know the little actions lead to the big ones.

 

It really is up to you. You really should take the time to define what you are trying to avoid. There is a commonly used exercise in addiction recovery that uses three concentric circles. You can search for “three circles exercise” for detailed instructions.

 

I'd say be careful with the mindset of 'I'm just doing this for my sexual health." In my experience, that kind of mindset will lead me to a relapse

 

Okay, so this is not going to be polite, just brutally honest. In what world is watching topless lesbians make out NOT a reset? Yes, its true, we, as addicts, define our own resets and relapses. But I've never seen or heard of what you looked at being something that didn't constitute an absolute and total reset. You asking this question just makes me think you're light years away from a genuine attitude and approach to true recovery.

 

That is porn and watching it is a relapse.

Since when does porn = sexual health?

 

WORD.

 

I do not understand your response.

 

I'm saying that I absolutely agree with you 100%. For a sex addict to say that he does this for sexual health purposes is beyond ridiculous.

 

OK.

 

Very true. You are very dumb, protect your streak bruh, you don't even know when it breaks and your whole struggle gets all broken

 

What do you mean by "sexual health purposes"? What benefit could this possibly achieve?

 

I did it again.. I relapse again.. what can I do after long streak.. I am
Telling myself
To keep strong now.. I try not to feel guilty .. I feel very disgusted and very ashame… sometimes
I want to kill myself.. just fews like a program habit in my brain. If I haven’t done it for ages eventually
I will do it again.. very annoying

 

Try again