Did porn make me transgender?

I went through what you describe too. I may have even gone further. At one stage I was crossdressing and using chat rooms pretending to be female. I was calling phone sex lines and asking the people there to treat me like... well, you get the idea. My advice to you is this: Stop thinking about it. Seriously, just stop. Stop worrying about whether you "may be transgender", stop watching porn (obviously), just find something else to think about. Every time you think about it, you're just making the vice stronger, even if you're "abstaining".

Just get as far away from it as you can. Go and camp out in nature alone if need be, but get as far away from that stuff as you can.

 

This!

You need to stop thinking about sex whatsoever for a while, to free your mind. If you want to answer the question about who you are (and what you want sexually), you have to get rid of the brainwashing effect porn had on you.

 

I know how you feel as I am in the same boat. Unfortunately, these thoughts and desires took me down a darker path recently always looking for that next sexual thrill/high and I ended up ultimately regretting it but it also was the last straw for me as I became disgusted of who I've become. I want my life back and I want to be normal again. I'm gonna fight hard to get my life back.

 

I know how you feel too, at about 15 I started cross dressing and doing really unusual things to feel free, like wearing womens clothes under my guy clothes, walking out into the woods and shedding my guy clothes and walking around in lingerie and stockings and a skirt so I could feel like a girl. I identified hugely with the women in porn scenes and fantasized about being dominated. I couldn't tell whether I was straight/gay/bi and I'm still struggling with it. I have a girlfriend whom I've dated for 2 years now, and I love being straight, but I also still think I might be bi.

The point being it's a real struggle, and I hope you can come to terms with who you really are, but I don't think you're completely transgender, I think you've just been warped like I have.

 

I understand your confusion. I too have found myself going deeper and deeper down the porn alleys. I am a straight male married with children. And yet I still find myself watching sissy porn. It's exactly what has been commented in this thread. Your mind goes to places you never thought you would. This does not make you a transgendered. None whatsoever. I too have nothing against either gay or transgender. Actually have many friends that are. Once you can battle this addiction, you can get your head back in the game of the orientation in which you are.

 

Bro porn screws you up in more ways than you could imagine. In a sober state-of-mind I can tell you I am 100% straight, but after a year of porn I started watching "transwoman" stuff, gross. I never would've imagined getting into that but like I said, porn hijacks your mind and your sexuality. It's gonna take some time to detox but I promise, if you stay clean your normal, healthy sexual desires will return.

Best of luck brother,

Matthew5:28

 

Unless you developed another set of sex organs then it probably didn't.

 

@Themadfapper haha!

 

I'm not a doctor and everything I'm saying could just be bullsh*t, but I believe that porn has confused your mind. My scientist declared that porn addiction can make you feel everything, even things are not true for you. Porn addiction make users seek for more extreme and adrenalinic (maybe we should say "dopaminic") porn videos so a straight would pass from vanilla sex to rapes, violent, BSDM videos and so on. Most of the cases, if your addiction goes beyond (if you/we are here, it probably did) you can turn on even with porn categories you would never imagine/watch. I read stories from guys who find disgusting granny videos, but their unconscious seeking porn brough them to thos kind of videos. In the same way, people have started watching transgender videos as a midway from being straight (you can see a woman) + having a new experience (he is actually a man). So reserches said that this can cause identity and sexual crises that could bring you to this big question: am I transgender? I don't know what you are (and you don't have to be ashemed if you find yourself to be transgender). What's good to know is that what you are will come out soon, when you'll get rid of every fears, every single problem this condition would make you think of, and go in front of a mirror, seriously asking yourself what you are.

Stopping porn will delete your brain fog even on topics like this one! Take care and be motivated

 

Whatever you view and are exposed to that is what you will gravitate towards.

Right now on the media there is a big problem with Isis. How they rape women, kill everybody who doesn't believe in what they do, and many many atrocities to humanity. For the people who commit these terrible acts, they believe they're doing a good thing. They have been raised in an environment that promotes violence against others, killing of minorities, and raping women and children. If this same person who is committing these crimes grew up in a different family, in a different part of the world. in a different social economical level, I bet things would be very different.

Another example is why Buddhists are so peaceful and don't believe in fighting and so many other religions who believe in God have killed more people in the name of their God than anybody else.

In some parts of the world eating horses and dogs is perfectly okay. Eating pigs is okay except for Jewish people and Muslim people. Hindus don't eat beef because they believe that cow is a sacred animal.
I hope you see where I'm getting at with my analogies? What ever you get to expose to and believe that will become you. If you watch different types of fetish porn's and with time your brain accepts it as normal and you want to try it.

For a short time I was involved with the fetish community and I used to go to their events, meetings, and other parties. I realized this is not for me. The people who belong in these communities don't take any actions to better their lives. They had traumatic childhoods and terrible stuff from rape, abuse, neglect, to incest happen to them. the women were very obese and did not declare their bodies. The man or introverts and had a hard time interacting in social environments. I don't want to get to the details of things because it might relapse some people. So I start moving away from the fetish communities because it wasn't giving me any constructive education in becoming a better person in life.

I have also been exposed to different types of fetish porn and my mind started believing it was okay. At one time I wanted to be physically involved with a transgender because on the Internet it looks so good. So the more of the different fetishes that I watched, I had to watch more hard-core porn because my mind needed that, I was more accepting and willing to try things out.

But at the end I was still left empty inside. Super empty and to the point where I didn't know what my purpose in life was. At that time my purpose was to go online get off, then find a local girl to have fun with, then go online, then find a different local girl. It was an endless cycle of distraction.

So to get back to your question I don't think it's porn that's forcing you to do anything. I think when you watch something so much your brain accepts it as being okay and normal and you want to try it. The best thing you can do for your mind is to stop watching porn and focus on happy in positive things in life to help humanity and those around you.

We can beat this addiction by one step at a time

 

I actually have to disagree on one point but agree with you overall. What the poster seems to be experiencing is autogynephilia. Because our society is shaped around false gender roles, masculinity and femininity, it's common for men to want to try the other role out because it turns them on sexually.

Masculinity and femininity are all in your psychology, IOW, they're not real things. Women are not naturally submissive. They are taught that from birth. Men are not naturally more dominant. They are taught these attitudes and behaviours. The one real clue that this is all in your head is that there are plenty of women who refuse to play the 'feminine' role and likewise there are men that refuse to play the masculine role. It's all a mental thing, a game that society has forced on you.

What the poster seems to be saying is, 'I want to be dominated' and he associates that with femininity and ultimately being female. It's a mind trick. Because our society is male focused and male dominated, the poster thinks he has to be female in order to experience submissiveness. He doesn't.

Our society is hell bent on policing gender roles so men who have these submissive fantasies assume they should be female.

I like to imagine a world where there is no dominance and submission, where there is no mental game like 'gender.' There is no such thing as masculine and feminine. It's all a trick.

Autogynephilia has been researched in depth. It's simply a man who falls in love with an image of himself as a woman and it's based on those false constructions I mentioned above.

 

I don't think you should worry about whether you're are transgender, that's all the effect of watching P. I've also been there, done that. Getting used to usual P videos watched t-sexual porn, engaged in chat conversations etc. The next day usually felt even more sad and depressed than after watching usual videos. That's pretty bitter but it gives extra motto to quit P.