Drinking instead of PMO

Hello, I like craft beer and am an occasional beer drinker - I typically drink about 0 - 4 beers a week. Even when I go out to breweries with friends the 4 beers I tend to drink that day ends up counting for the week as I then don't drink again for a while.

Last Thursday and again today, when having the urge to PMO and being unable to focus on work (I work from home) I drank 2 beers. My work focus and PMO urges are always worse in the morning. Any thoughts on this? Today while I started drinking my first beer I found that my desire to look at PMO and inability to focus went down a lot. So I was able to accomplish some work and not be tempted to look at P. Right now, I'm on my second beer and am still feeling great and the urges are gone. Once I finish this beer, I don't plan to drink again for the rest of the day. In the afternoon, my son is home from school and we spend time together so I typically dont watch P even if I have urges.

So I'm guessing the beer is releasing some dopamine into my brain, thus curbing the cravings for porn since my brain is getting a "fix" another way. It's probably not great to do this, but I don't think 2 beers a day every couple of days is bad, especially if it helps with nofap.

I can work while drinking, and it seems to help me focus, so I don't lose the productivity I do when I PMO, and PMO has just such a huge hold on me that I feel having two beers is so much better than going that route and binging for hours.

 

Doesn't sound that cool to me either, but I feel for now I have to choose the lesser evil. I've been PMO pretty much daily or every other day for years with few exceptions, including long binge sessions. I don't want to go back there. And yea, certainly the time of day is questionable, but I also don't plan to do it every day - last time was 4 days ago so maybe once every 4 days *if needed*.

I have a lot of anxiety so the two beers help. I just finished my second beer and have no desire for another beer or for PMO. When I woke up I couldn't stop thinking about PMO. If I didn't have to work and be productive I could probably get by, but it's hard to be sitting in front of the computer in private at home all day and not be tempted otherwise

 

Well, on the plus side I just had a weekly meeting with my two bosses and it actually went very well. These meetings usually don't turn out well, either because I'm stuttering and can't speak well (porn induced) or because I'm behind in my work due to watching porn. I'm usually beating myself afterwards on how bad it went which leads me to seek out more porn. But today it feels good. I can actually say I feel good right now.