Hi everyone, So a little backstory. I've been with my girlfriend for two and a half years now, and have been engaged since February of this year. Although I'm a bit older (31 now), I've never had a girlfriend (save for a short time first year of college) before I met her. Obviously prior to her being around, I turned to porn for release. And I kind of made it through all of college and after college by doing that instead attempting to date. It was easy, and even though I felt like a loser afterwards, I still kept doing it. At this point I was maybe looking at porn like once a week or more, I don't remember exactly. Since we've been dating, it was only during the beginning of our relationship that I was not looking at porn. I've always felt terrible about doing this, but the draw of porn was hard to resist. I felt the draw and rather than fighting it (and more importantly, fighting for her), I fell into the trap. When we started dating, I wasn't using it. But old habits, especially when you can just rationalize away as to why it's ok, can be tough to turn away from. I was using it a few weeks after we had sex for the first time. And I continued on, until we get to present day. This past weekend, we met a mutual friend just to hang out. That mutual friend described how one of her friends boyfriend was abusing porn and ruining that friends relationship. Later that night, my fiancée asked me if I used porn. And I said that I did. This revelation has turned my relationship upside down. My fiancée was deeply offended and devastated by this, and probably even more so by my failure to bring this up earlier in our relationship, especially since we have struggled with frequency in our sex life. And this is obviously due to the porn there. She says that I have not been completely open with her regarding things, and that I need to be able to trust her as truly the other part of the relationship unit. I'm committed to giving up porn for good. And I want to do anything I need to to restore our relationship. But how can I show her that I'm trustworthy, after I've spent most of the relationship hiding the porn habit from her. I'm scared that I won't be able to do win her back. I'm scared that we won't work out. But I'm willing to do anything I can to make it work and win her trust back.