So yesterday I binge watched my fetish for the last time EVER. (I know, bad decision) I managed to block my fetish permanently and I wanted to watch it for the last time without jerking off. Now today I woke up, while having dreamt really sexually and I cant stop thinking about my fetish, so I took the radical decision to masturbate on some pictures without thinking about my fetish. (It was a controlled thought and not a impulsive horny decision.) For now it feels good, I am not thinking about my fetish anymore. How do you guys think about this, I see it a bit as doing something addictive to kick of your urges but without triggering your biggest addiction.
As someone who has OCD about my unwanted fetish and thus a lot of intrusive fetish thoughts, I say this method works only in short term. The more you jerk off to that, the stronger the neural pathways are and the stronger intrusive thoughts will get in time. Basically, the longer you abstain, the worse thoughts will get.
stands to reason, you misunderstand. I by no means meant that abstaining is unhelpful and I did not encourage anyone to maitain this habit. I meant that if you jerk off just to purge your thoughts and do it continuously, it will work short term, but it won't work long term, you will have a week of clarity at best, but then you'd have to jerk off again and again, with thoughts returning everytime, because you feed them by your compulsive actions, it will never end. Staying with thoughts and accepting them is necessary, but not taking any action - that is what causes them to become stronger as the time passes.
That's like an alcoholic that stops their liquor addiction by drinking beer. You're actually still strengthening the pathways wired to porn. Cutting it off completely is the only way to recovery.
