I am new to this forum, but not to NoFap and Porn Quitting movements. Now i am on streak of 20 days without both of masturbation and watching porn. I feel very confident about myself and see to reasons to drop, because i am learning on my own mistakes and incorporating experience and knowledge of other people. Previous one was 14 and 55 days respectively. But there is single problem which i think i know i solution to but not quite sure. This problem is femine boys. Every single time i see a picture of pretty crossdresser or even think about the word itself my dick raises up. Most funny part is that i don't have any proper image of it in my head and as soon as i try to create it, i immediately become patient and erection starting to fade. I don't feel as gay or bisexual because i've never got aroused by man anywhere:gym, sauna,streets, friends and other. I get aroused by women and like them. What's your opinion on it? I consider this as a temporary problem which is caused by watching porn and lack of real experience with women, i suppose that it will fade down itself over time. Also i have a theory that my brain can't separate that these are boys because of their femine looks and make me react on them same way as at pretty women.
I think its a problem of maturity. Even if you're not a child, maybe your brain/mind is inmature so it hasnt reached the stage of "telling apart girls and boys"..your brain is mixing both genders up,in a sort of combination,thus you like boys with characteristics of girls ,without the extreme of hermaphroditysm. My best advice is to do grown-up stuff,take responsibilities,help others in need and in a weak position. This will grow your brain and make you leave this stuff behind.
Jeez, why is porn teaching humanity to associate things they detest with things they find sexually arousing? Shucks, why is everyone becoming accustomed to finding things addictive and alluring that they admit are actually horrendous and deplorable? Yikes, something bigger is at play. If you want to be free of these types of problems OP you have to ingrain the truth of its nature into your mind, instead of associating it with arousal you have to associate it with repulsion, its easier to do that if you research why your favorite pornographers had it in mind to see you this way after being such a glad consumer of their products.....
its called Metastrophilia. Soph has a 30-min video on it. I think I cant link it due to the forum's anti piracy rules? since its in the Archieve website. but yes, its intended by the bosses of the industry to take advantage of primal/old brain(3-brains model)desires or taboos we humans have.
Maybe it does not mean anything. I have played this game of trying divination of the penis like this myself, not with this subject, but this idea that my penis is trying to tell me something. You are theorizing, but from my experience that will not help to remove the anxiety around the issue. Your penis is getting gorged with blood and there could be 100 reasons, who cares? Is your penis in charge here?
