johnnnn4
New Fapstronaut
Hello,
i will now be writing to all of you why im stopping and what i have learned reading on this site.
I have been watching porn since the age of 8 id say, (I am 17 now) and it always was the most regular vanilla porn normal people watch up until a few months ago when I started watching weirder and weirder stuff, at first it was stuff like lesbian feet worshipping e.t.c, then it went to semi straight transgender stuff, like a trans girl fucking a cis girl e.t.c, then it turned into trans girl and male shit and it had me highly conflicted about my sexuality, I thought something was wrong with me, i was scared of being gay even though I undoubtedly knew i was a straight male, and fast forward to now I, started going on trans only sites as before it was only on the hub, and after a while and i thought to myself, this is the only shit I'm fucking watching, it was the only thing that even excited me at all even though after i felt absolutely disgusted with myself and I couldn't understand why i was doing this, then i found the nofap forums after looking up why i was suddenly attracted to transgenders e.t.c, i read people saying similar stuff and them having lived through what I exactly have and it made me realize that I'm not the only one, and i realized that its merely a porn induced fetish and it really helped me, then i read success stories and other threads and realized that i have to stop this entirely if i want to function normally in society, i also have had social anxiety and just anxiety in general for as long as i can remember, so now to realize its all because of the porn i was watching made me finally accept my problem as it is and finally stop, last time I PMO'd was yesterday and I don't plan on doing it in the foreseeable future, thank you to everybody for making threads sharing their problems and such which helped me realize that I'm not the only one and this can be fixed, love to all of you, and i wish you all succeed
we CAN do this, be strong and prosper
i will now be writing to all of you why im stopping and what i have learned reading on this site.
I have been watching porn since the age of 8 id say, (I am 17 now) and it always was the most regular vanilla porn normal people watch up until a few months ago when I started watching weirder and weirder stuff, at first it was stuff like lesbian feet worshipping e.t.c, then it went to semi straight transgender stuff, like a trans girl fucking a cis girl e.t.c, then it turned into trans girl and male shit and it had me highly conflicted about my sexuality, I thought something was wrong with me, i was scared of being gay even though I undoubtedly knew i was a straight male, and fast forward to now I, started going on trans only sites as before it was only on the hub, and after a while and i thought to myself, this is the only shit I'm fucking watching, it was the only thing that even excited me at all even though after i felt absolutely disgusted with myself and I couldn't understand why i was doing this, then i found the nofap forums after looking up why i was suddenly attracted to transgenders e.t.c, i read people saying similar stuff and them having lived through what I exactly have and it made me realize that I'm not the only one, and i realized that its merely a porn induced fetish and it really helped me, then i read success stories and other threads and realized that i have to stop this entirely if i want to function normally in society, i also have had social anxiety and just anxiety in general for as long as i can remember, so now to realize its all because of the porn i was watching made me finally accept my problem as it is and finally stop, last time I PMO'd was yesterday and I don't plan on doing it in the foreseeable future, thank you to everybody for making threads sharing their problems and such which helped me realize that I'm not the only one and this can be fixed, love to all of you, and i wish you all succeed
we CAN do this, be strong and prosper