First-timer starting on May 5th.

Hi guys,

This is my first real NoFap attempt, although I'd been lurking on /r/nofap bout a year and a half ago. Back then I managed to quit porn for over a month, yet I kept fapping regularly. After a while I found it okay to watch porn "once in a while" and slowly but steadily I was back to where I had come from. Fapping and watching porn at least to times a day.

Why am I doing this?

I'm 26 by now and unfortunately I've been very prone to anxiety for basically as long as I can remember. Actually I'm anxious all the fukcing time. I'm so used to it that I only recently discovered that feeling super tense all the time is not by any means a normal thing!
So basically I am and have been on the edge of my seat continuously. Of course it didn't take me long in my early teens to become aware of that fapping not only gets me the usual great feeling but it also "gets me off the edge" for a while.

By reading through all the nofap material it came to my attention that people who stopped PMO'ing frequently report a boost in self-confidence and those with anxiety also report some relief thereof.

That's what I want. And what I badly need. I'm sick of this way of life and I really need it to change. I really need to change it.

For me that means no PMO for at least this month. Unless I manage to get laid. Which is rather unlikely.

Last PMO took place last night. Just installed K9 so P shouldn't be a problem.

I'll report back here on a daily basis!

edit: Just seen that there are subforums for journals. I created one here. Sorry for the x-post.