For the next 100 years

There are many success stories one can choose from, so there isn't much I could add to benefit others. Nevertheless, today is day 93 for me and I would like to write a thread to get perhaps a feeling that I succeeded and to motivate myself to keep going.

The first time I thought of myself as an addict was more than 8 years ago. I wanted to stop, because I believed fapping was lowly, controlling me and destroying me spiritually, physically and emotionally. No matter how much effort I invested the period I could abstain halved each time. At 17 I abstained for a year, and then it was half a year, then three months, and so on, until I knew the next time when it was going to happen. When I was at the worst, I relapsed few times a day each or every second day. At this point I got into a relationship and got married. The frequency of my relapses decreased, but the problem remained, drawing into it the complexity of a relationship.

The past six years since I'm married the relapses weren't that often (binging once per month or two), but the consequences remained until the next relapse was in proximity. I was irritable, exacting, unproductive, depressed and sometimes contemplating suicide.

The breaking point for me was when I attended a youth camp, where a pastor addicted to PMO spoke about his problems, how he confronted them and pointed us to some resources. At that point I started to learn. I acquired some tools for coping with urges, but I guess I still lacked the determination to stop once and for all.

When I was contemplating taking some medications in order to stop with the habit, I came across NoFap. It's been difficult, but destroying PMO day after day after day has become easier.

I’d like to say that after 8 years of warfare I’m free, but each day brings new challenges to my sobriety. This is going to be a 100 year long war, which I don’t intend to lose.

There’s plenty advice one can find. I’d like to recommend just three things: Learn, preservere and take it a day at a time. If you can't manage a day, pick a shorter period that you think you can manage.

Whish you a lot of success