Give me reasons!

Hi! Im 'blank'.but im here as 'thrices'.i reside in canada.Im 22, im a student,and an amateur pro wrestler.I simply train right now.Training is quite hard.I do a part time job to pay my college fees.And overtime illegally without tax to pay for my wrestling school.that's what i wanted to be ever.maybe go to wwe one day.and i know i can do it.
Thing is,ihv been a porn addict,since 13 when i thought i had a nice future.it made me weak and lanky.i turned to NoFap serioulsy,only about 8 months ago while i signed up in 2014.
Only reason i wanted to be free of it is that i found out ejaculation made me nutrition less.no matter what people or scientists say,i believe its the elimination of semen that makes you weak.its made up of very food we ate for last 3 days.that was my research.hormones is another thing.
Now,i got introduced to an ancient chinese way to orgasm without ejaculation called 'three finger method' and i'hv done it before,and it has'nt hurt any of my organs,before you call that out.i have also made a pocket pu**y that allows me to have kinda fantasy sex to porn.and not ejaculate at all.
So,i am getting the pleasure but without the loss.idk,their is something in me telling me its not very manly.something that tells me real sex is the only real thing in the world.i have no idea why i should stop it since its only been last 2 days i have been doing it after i came out of a 20
day streak.
I would need a strong reason right now on why i should'nt gobon with it.apologies as i do not mean to break your will.its a real scenario im having.i simply ca'nt imagine a real tough guy,manly who goes home and has sex to a pocket pu**y,even though he orgasms without ejaculation.haha thanks!