Has anyone acted out due to HOCD???

@A346 You're worrying too much my friend. You said you were drunk and acted out. I read a lot of stories about that. It happens a lot. It doesn't mean you are gay or bisexual. Also it is very normal to act out because of HOCD.

 

Listen man. I acted out to because of my addiction. I masturbated to so much shit that I got into weird stuff. I went from straight to transgendered person, gay, lesbians, and etc. All the fucking categories I've seen. I was a hardcore masturbator. I could name porn stars like that lol. One day I was watched loads of porn to crave my masturbation addiction. I love to fantasize about giving anal and recieving oral. That day I got so high off my addiction that I ended up letting a guy give me head. That fucked me up big time because I already had OCD naturally. So I devoped HOCD and I became a dick also worried a lot just like you. I been on here 24/7 asking questions and etc. I've been in your shoes my friend. If you say you're not gay or bi then you're not. That's rule number one.

 

@A346 do things that keep your mind off that nonsense. Another way is to not be afraid of being gay even though you are not. Socialize with gay people. I hanged out with my gay brother and talked to some gay people. Their actually awesome people! The only thing different about them is what they like!

 

Yeah man it's all the porn bro. Start your 90 day reboot and you will see the difference. All your tastes will return back to normal. You even said you were into normal stuff before you got addicted so you already know your answer my brotha. Don't even worry about it

 

Great job bro. Keep it up and do not give in! You got this man. I believe in you. Oh yeah one more thing. Do not ask for reassurance. It will not help at all. Just accept the thoughts even though they are not true.

 

Yes, Yes you are not the only one. There's so many people on this website that came here with the same problem including me my friend. If I can do it then you can to. Message me from time to time if it gets rough so I can help.

 

If you agree with HOCD thoughts you will find they go away. You will find that thoughts are not real. They're not literal. They're not actually objective truths. When a HOCD thought appears and you can laugh at it and agree, it will disappear.

 

Hi

I acted out 5 weeks ago and must admit I liked it and I was doing the same thing that the women where doing on the screen it was freaky proper HOCD. But when I am out I never look at men only women I even tried one day to fancy a man but it just did not happen also I spent 2 weeks worrying about STD's. This is what you have to do, well this is what I am doing do not block the Homo thoughts let them flow but do not dwell on them but just accept it but in the meantme do not look at internet porn it will only recharge the addiction this is what was happening to me and still is I am only at Day 40.

 

Im beginning to believe that in sexual acts there is usually man to man, woman to woman, man to woman and there should be pervert to pervert. Because sharing delicious thoughts with someone who finds them as delicious and getting off over it should be a whole seperate catagory

 

What is HOCD?

 

HOCD - Homosexual Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder

 

I haven't, even though I've fantasized about it a lot.

In retrospect, escalating to such thoughts seemed only natural. I remember when I was 13-14, I literally became bored with regular porn (and by that point, regular porn meant gangbangs, 15-guys-on-1-girl facials, that kind of depraved shit). It's about that time I found out about transgendered person/gay porn and what attracted me the most about it is the fact that it was really taboo, and that I'd be in a fuckload of trouble if my parents and other people found out about it.

But what made little sense is that I never fantasized about guys I knew in real life. I've seen many naked guys in locker rooms but I found none of them interesting, and I'd fantasize only about girls I knew when masturbating. I escalated even further to gay porn about when I hit puberty, when I got really fat and insecure. My logic was that I saw all of these other guys flirting with girls and being successful with them, while I watched from the corners and felt really inferior. In my depraved mind that sort of meant that I MUST be gay because if I were a real man I would have gotten a girl already. Gayness was sort of an escape from my own insecurities about my own masculinity.

 

Wow I didn't know there was a name for the strange urges I would get everyonce in a while it's nice to know I'm not the only one.