Hi guys i hope you are doing absolutely fine. First of all a little discription about me. my name is nikhil and i'm from india. i'm 19 years old and i've been dealing with the PMO from a very long time. but i'm a very interesting person there is nothing uncool about me i love to workout a lot i do a lot of things through out the day. i also always had a medidative side also. but the only thing that was not correct is this addiction to watch porn. and this is only thing that i always wanted to be erased from my life. i never had girlfriend in my life. and rightnow i dont wanna have either. cuz i want a relationship which from heart not to spank someone. and this the second time in my life that i've not masturbated for 3 weeks and it's been very hard to stay that long seriously. used to masturbate atleast 4 days in week. and sometimes it is 2 times in a day and sometime it is 3. and after orgasm the only thing left was guilt. and i used feel like shit. and i would promise to myself that i won't do it but i would do it again and again and it was so embarrasing, but with this website i feel like i can give up this habit and also help others. now i feel like it is a responsibility to not to masturbate and share my experiences. that i will get during nofap. and there have been many good results of nofap i do a lot of physical work and now i dont feel exhausted at all. i'm a little more confident than before for myslef. and top of that i can flex on my friends bitches. but i had sometimes during this 3 week session that my urges were out of control and i couldn't resist and i ended up watching porn. but even i jerked but not to point that there was no coming back. And last night same thing happend i was watching porno and i headed to the wash room to jerk off. And this time was different i went and as i was bout to jerk off literally a inner voice came and said that why the fuck are uou doing this? You would be like any other motherfucker in this world who is wasting his sperm for no reason that get a pleasure of 5 sec. and sometime it is not even that long. and i didn't do it. and also i've taken the vow that from now i wont see any kind of sexual stuff for straight 90 days. And in india the semen is considered the most valuable thing in entire world. also swami vivekanand said that it is not that you are not ejaculating your semen only then you are brahmachari(one who practices celebicy). even a single though for a sec about sex destroys your aura for 8 days. and it is pretty heavy, I know that it a very long paragraph but it is all that i am thinking right now. again i will post when i will achieve 90 days. writing this will be now responsible for not masturbating for next 90 days so i can share my next experiences. Have a good day.
