Hello everyone, nice to to meet you all! Let me introduce you to myself! I am 24 year old, who is homosexual, like everyone here I have been struggle with PMO for so long! I am a person who is shy, and tend to have social anxiety when meeting new people! I started this problem with a habit of looking at appealing ads on magazine, then into TV, and into looking at nudity stuffs either on TV or movies, I was around 13 years old. Then I escalated into my first masturbation when I was 15 years olds, I began to masturbate everyday. Then when I was 16, I noticed something wrong with masturbation, my private part is very sore and itchy, so I just want to quit masturbation! Which I sucessfully quit masturbation for 5 months, then somehow I replase to it again. I also noticed when something happen to whether is a stress or anxiety or feeling negative about how I look (my self-esteem), I tend to turn to masturbation. So I was relapse to masturbation on and off to I was 18 years old. At this point, I began to have internet at home,I began to look at porn pics then videos on the internet, this is when I began to fall deeper into the PMO hole. I began to do PMO since 2008 to now!! I was painful for me! In 2011, I was diagnose with anxiety/depression, I was on anti-depressant, beside my personal conflict with my self-esteem and emotional conflict, I knew PMO also played a huge role in contributing to my anxiety/depression. Since then I have been working to quit PMO, the longest I ever goes is a month, yet I am still relapse from every 8 days! my goal is to go beyond 90 days to completely reboot myself, I also wanted to get off the anti-depression medication, breaking out of the PMO prison to live life the fullest. Thank you for reading my story!
Hello. Thanks for posting. I'm heterosexual but I can totally empathise with what you've written. I'm on Day One and only a couple of hours into it. It's going to be a tough battle for sure. I find that whenever I'm anxious or in need of some kind of validation, my hands will go straight to my pants and before I know it I've used all kinds of rationalisations for what I'm about to do and there's the 'O' and I've failed again. Masturbation for many people I'm sure is fine. They do it as a release and they get on with their lives but feeling anxiety/depression and wanting to feel better creates a vicious continuing cycle. I hear ya and I'm with ya. This battle will be won by all of us here who sincerely want it and a new life will await. Harry.
Welcome antoine! You're in the right place. I'd suggest educating yourself about porn addiction (www.yourbrainonporn.com), getting an accountability partner, and keeping a journal of your progress. Those things have helped me and most of the men here. Good luck and feel free to contact me anytime. And you may want to join the Gay Men's NoFap Group I started.
Welcome!, this is the first step on the right path, the ultimate challenge will test you every day, but we will come out of it stronger than ever before.
Thanks Harry! I can defiately relate to you! You are right, when I felt the loss of the vadilation from others, I tend turn porn, and it became a vicious cycle! I felt like I need to work with my emotion!! To be honest, I know Nofrap for few months now, but I remain a lurker, but it time for me to join and to be part of community to help myself and others and Yes, someday all of us will get out of this prison!! Thanks Blue for your resource, I am still figuring out how to using this forum, I will definately join the group, it just I still have to play with this forum a little but to understand how to used or join the group!! But thanks! Thanks also Direwolf! this going to be a great challenge for me to overcome PMO!
