hello fellow fapstonauts!! struggled with addiction all my life

hi there, i am new to this forum so first a big hello to all the other fapstonauts out there. It seems all my life i have really struggled with addiction. i started watching porn regularly at around the age of 13 and started smoking at a similar age. these two addictions still have not been dealt with and have just gotten worse over the following 1o years. Around the age of 19 i got really heavily addicted to diazepam for a couple of years and i have sufferd from anxiety ever since.
Anyway back to the reason i have come to this forum for help. I have always had a problem with porn and over the years the content matter has gotten worse and worse to the point were only the extreme stuff really turns me on. also within the last few years i have started to find gay porn appealing which is strange as i never did before i started getting bored of normal straight porn.
I have never had a proper relationship and i know this has a lot to do with the porn addiction along with a few other reasons. With the help of the other fapstonauts out there i no i can beat this one and look onto a brighter and better future.

much love, peace

 

Thanks man. I am shore that if i stay strong there are positive changes that can be made. i just no its going to be a hell of a challenge.

 

I Know what you mean about the boredom thing. That is when all the bad things i tend to get up to happen. luckily i work monday to friday because i no with more spare time there would be more of a problem with porn and drugs. Stay stong bro and good luck on your job hunt

 

well that's now been over 24 hrs since i last Pmo'd so that's a good start. I haven't been as horny as i thought i would be. Also took my first cold shower today and that was really exhilarating. I've no idea if i could ever last under there for more of a couple of minuets tho. stay strong fapstronauts