Hello NoFap

Hello everyone, My name is WindMirror and I'm new to NoFap.
I'm 13 years old and I've been doing PMO since I was 12.

I actually have tried to abstain from PMO before, but I have failed countless times so I finally decided to make a NoFap account. I'm so tired of this addiction and I need to stop.

I started fapping a year ago, when I was 12. When I first discovered it, I was so amazed. Fapping felt so good. It relieved all my stress and it felt like all my problems went away. So, I kept doing it. At first I was hesitating, because I knew masturbation was bad, but I googled it to check. Every site I clicked on said that masturbation was good, healthy, there are no bad effects, everyone does it, it reduces prostate cancer, and let me just say right now, THAT'S ALL BS. My innocent self just believed all that and after that, it all went downhill. I fapped almost everyday. I learned fapping techniques, like edging. I learned how to get the most pleasure out of it. I kept finding different content to fap to, but thankfully, I didn't get to the point where I needed to watch porn.

After a year of fapping almost everyday, I realised, I was definitely addicted. I realised, it was bad. I felt like shit everyday, I lost my confidence, I didn't have any energy or motivation to do things, I felt tired throughout the day, I lost so much time fapping, I didn't have any time to do the things I love. I felt ashamed of myself.

And at that moment, I knew, I had to stop. I started searching online, and I found NoFap. I discovered, there were a lot of people, just like me, who are also addicted to PMO. I was surprised, there was a whole community dedicated on stopping PMO addiction. This just gave me motivation to start and try to do NoFap. But even that was not enough to stop. I still fapped, I kept on relapsing, and everytime I did, I get this feeling of regret. I became more determined, I started to reduce my fapping. I spent more time studying, doing my hobbies, playing with friends. Every day I didn't fap, I felt happy. I felt like I had the energy to do anything. That feeling was so much better than the feeling I got when I orgasm. I knew I wanted to stop completely.

After trying to do NoFap for a few months, and relapsing over and over, this is where I am now. I started to take this seriously. I blocked all the ways I could access content to fap to. I deleted all my social media, because I have gotten urges from them. I also disabled YouTube on my phone, because that's where I always find videos to fap to. After doing all that, I thought I could stop completely, but I was wrong. I got to 7 days because I got urges when I was reading a webtoon. I regretted it, and I deleted webtoon after that. 3 days later, here I am now. I just relapsed this morning, and I was so done. I made this account, and I am gonna stop once and for all. I know I'm still young, but I know, if I let this addiction grow, I will not be able to stop it easily. I need to stop right now when it's not too bad yet.

Thanks for reading my story. I'm WindMirror, and this is the start of my NoFap journey.

P.S. I'm sorry if this thread is poorly written, English is not my first language and my immature brain cannot word sentences and tell stories well.

 

Thanks for replying guys, it really does help me and make me feel that I'm not alone in this!

 

Ah okay, noted. I was just gonna introduce myself here but I guess I ended up writing a long story about my addiction, haha. Thanks for the advice, will sure do that.