Hello. I am new here. I don't have a strong porn addiction or masturbation addiction, but I have some other psyche issue with sex. About Me/Background I'm 20 and I've probably been fapping since I was 8-9. I'm also gay but I think that holds little relevance here. I only really realised what it was when I was like year 8 (13), probably. When I was younger, I would often look up porn in the past and get turned on really easily by what I saw. I would download porn and look at it maybe every night. My porn use continued throughout the years, but it did gradually die down. I suppose because the effect it had wasn't as intense as it first was. It would fluctuate, sometimes I'd look at it more sometimes I'd be like "meh". The Present Day These days, I don't really look it up unless I feel the need to masturbate. Even then when I do masturbate, I don't always look it up. I would not say I'm an addict to porn. The Problem I feel like I'm having psychological issues regarding sex, fantasies, my penis size/behaviour, and masturbation. I keep on thinking about sex even though I've never had it. Like, what it would feel like to receive oral, or being f*cked, or just making out. Sometimes I feel like I have problems getting it up or hard, but I don't. It's because I have a pretty small flaccid penis (and not that big erect, but still enough.. I hope!). This is because I use to be able to get off on thought of porn or watching it when I was younger, but I am no longer able to. Then I feel like when I do orgasm, the amount I ejaculate is trivial to what I see, despite being aware that porn scenario is completely staged and done over days. I think I orgasm too fast or soon. The fact I also sometimes use porn sites in order to jack off or assist in it, is something I find I have a problem with. I think porn has just damaged my psyche in regards to sex. I think about it, want it, but I'm too anxious about performance if the time came. The Goal To completely rid myself of watching any form of hardcore porn made for the purposes of being porn. I think I'll count myself safe when watching Game of Thrones, if anything does happen in Game of Thrones, and it's not just lesbian sex. To abstain from masturbation and orgasm for at least 1 week, for now. In order to improve my perception of sex and my self-esteem in regards to my own body. ------------------------------------------------------------------- So that's my intro. Thanks for reading. Questions, advice, greetings, etc. are welcome.
I don't think so. I mean, I don't think my life is being affected too much by this. Then again, I do nothing all day but study/watch shows, so -shrug-
