Hello:/

I want to be a new person.
I masturbated for the first time when I was 14. Before that at school since I was 11 years old, most of my mates urged me to masturbate. But I resisted. They thought I was crazy but I stood by my principles. And on top of that I'm religious so I didn't give in easily.
Since april 2015 I have been fapping more than twice a week and sometimes twice a day.
And this June, if lost control of myself.
All I want to do is to revert back to my previous lifestyle.
All my mates don't know that I have ever fapped in my life. And I feel guilty for lying and fapping at the same time.
I've come here to seek refuge from this thing and I hope I emerge a different person.
I pledge that I shall abstain from PMO.