namastey, i am new to this place and the purpose for being here isnt different that i too really really really want to get rid of that PMO. so... i want your help because i am feeling worst. idk whether it'll help me to get rid of that habit or not. but i wanna tell you that i masturbated today, watching porn (as i am unable to arouse without watching porn, i had to do that) and the reason for doing masturbation and get orgasms is because i was in pressure of studies! wtf! everytime i left alone at home , i do that. and this happens very often. i have a boyfriend but i have wasted the charm of our relationship. i am not interested in him anymore. meseems him unattractive, boring and waste. but the truth is i loved him. i knew the difference between love and lust , so there could be no point of lust for him anyway. i know this is love and due to my bad attitude towards relationship and other aspect of life i am failing in everything. i know that this masturbation, and self pleasure thing (that too in excessive manner) are responsible for my failure. i am fed up of myself. i decide every time to quit and again start it as dumbstruck. positive vibes for negative things generates in my mind and I again push myself into these. please please someone help me. :'( i hate myself. have very low self esteem. no confidence. no life. i ,myself is the outcome of my attitude towards bad habit. i cant concentrate on studies, i have wasted hell alot of money for preparation of jobs, and failed. i wasted my precious time. i am failed in everything. i am failed in life. help me!!