For the past 4-5 days, all I've done was relapsed. In fact, I've done it about 2 times each day. I have no idea why I have this huge urge, but I want it to stop. I was on a good streak until these last couple of days and now I can't see myself going a day without doing it. I need to reboot and reset. Does anyone have any pointers on where I should get started? Any response means the world to me in this dark time. Thanks!!!
If you have ever came across my journal, it's basically been relapse after relapse every 3-4 days ago followed by intensive binging. My advice to you is set a date for your last relapse and begin your recovery in a time in your life where you can focus all your energy in fighting it. I started my streak in the summer before this college semester started. You might also want to go cold turkey on all technology. I've basically packed up my laptop for two weeks. My advice is to never give up. It took my 8 years. The minute you give up, you let your demons win.
