HELP

I am currently on day 30.

I’m going to be honest and say it hasn’t been a perfect streak.

There have been a few slip ups, searches and edging but not a full blown relapse where I orgasm. The little slip ups have had enough power to make me feel low enough to not want to be back in that mental state (which is good because before it would take me relapsing to feel like shit and want to quit)

Plus, these slip ups only lasted less than 5 minutes before I stopped and changed the activity but boy have they been powerful enough to cause a ripple effect.

I was on search mode just now, and honestly I started thinking maybe I can just restart and start from scratch since my last streak wasn’t “perfect”.

I think there may be guys that can relate with me here. It’s not about perfection but about consistent progress. If I add up the actual hours of abstinence they can be equivalent to 30 days and if I add up the time Of my “slip ups” then it would be less than 20 minutes in a months time.

Which is why I refuse to restart my clock. To me, counting days is all in the mind and may work for some. For me, Counting the progress is where the real change is happening.

So yea I am not beating myself up and counting these errors worthy enough to restart my clock. I’ve done that before and I think trying to have a perfect streak only keeps me bound.

Looking at my progress has helped tremendously and this is why I am here. I had a terrible urge a few minutes ago but as I am ending this thread I feel much better. I affirmed myself. I may help another guy out here not to be so hard on himself and my mind seems to be getting back in alignment with my goals. I seem to be okay now but I would appreciate some encouragement if you guys have any!!