Hey everyone! New guy here

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  1. frustrated_beekeeper_man21

    frustrated_beekeeper_man21 New Fapstronaut

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    Phew Where to start?
    Im 27 male, married for 2 years and we have a 7month old daughter. I guess she and my wife are the reason Im here, although to be honest, I've been putting this off for days now.

    I have been addicted to pornography and masturbation since I was 10. At a very early age, I was introduced to pornography. I didn't really understood it then, but that it felt good. But I wasn't hooked then. When life happened, my family was forced to move to another city. That's when I met my friends. They were good kids, and they really cared about me. I learned to properly dress because of them, I experienced a whole lot of fun adventures, but they also introduced me to masturbation, and I guess that's where it all really started. I don't regret meeting them, I regret that I didn't have anyone telling me about this before.

    Time passed and Im still hooked and at this point I am no longer enjoying this. I haven't been for years now.

    I should mention that Im religious and pretty active in the church. But it hurts so much to know that I have been lying to everyone about my state. Im embarrassed to talk about worthiness and purity when I feel so filthy myself. Im a hypocrite.

    But please dont assume that I am doing this for my religion. I guess it's a part, but the real reason are my wife and daughter. Especially my daughter. Especially my child. I don't want her growing up drowing in the thing I am in right now. I dont want her to ever go near that place. But how could I when I an neck deep in it?

    I tried what my faith told me to do. I tried to listen to voices of encouragement in almost all places. But I guess that's just it. I just try. I know my triggers. I know what turns me on. I know what I should avoid and I know what I should be doing. Im just so damn lazy.

    I really hate myself for this. I hate what I have become and I am in pain.

    I guess what I am realizing is I don't need the self-help crap. I need people I can talk to. I need people to know. I need people who are trying to do better in the same struggle I am in.

    Still, I try to look hopeful. I look forward to being a part of the community.
     
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  2. palindromo

    palindromo Fapstronaut

    Welcome
    Please, start studying carefully what's happening in your mind > https://oceanrecoverycentre.com/2016/07/the-ultimate-guide-to-overcoming-internet-porn-addiction/

    First time without porn will be stressful , but if you resist , in some months you will feel reborn.

    If the first times a person relapse easly, it's okay.
    The streaks becomes even longer , day by day.
    Don't porn anymore, it's better to struggle and at the last to relapse than to look at porn.
    No more instagram pictures of models. No more erotic imagines , erotic stories or erotic asmr.
    If you experience ''flatline'' and low libido , resist.
    > https://www.yourbrainonporn.com/por...l-size-and-or-libido-are-decreasing-flatline/

    An effective weapon to overcome urges and thoughts : mindfulness.
    The brain will try to win you and to get some triggers for the seek of dopamine. Resist
     
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    One Eyed Owl Fapstronaut

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