Hey Guys-New Here And On Day 2...

Discussion in 'New to NoFap' started by ItaliTrey, Dec 26, 2015.

  1. ItaliTrey

    ItaliTrey Fapstronaut

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    ....Technically. I watched porn today with the intention that I MIGHT jack off (yeah, right) and then something strange happened. As I clicked back to go from one video back to my search feed, an ad for starting hobbies popped up. It quickly reminded me of when I was about 13 and an ad popped up on my computer saying that I might have a porn addiction and I need help. So, without further ado:

    "Hello everyone, my name is Trey, and I'm addicted to porn and masturbation."

    Now that that's out in the air, and the problem is now known to the user, this is my strongest attempt yet to stop. At first I'd go on these "Yeah, this is my last time jerking off" phases, only to justify my habit by saying things like "I'll do it this once, I feel like I've earned it", or "I'm just so stressed. Maybe if I do it once I'll be okay". Suddenly, my stop forever becomes doing it 2, 3 times a day. At 24 years of age, that ad easily reminded me of how long I'd actually been doing this. Over half my life (began watching porn at 11) has been altered because of my addiction. I think of how good my grades were before my addiction, how many friends I had, how social I was, how many dreams I had, and now it's a different story. My grades were borderline dismal in high school, I've been starting and stopping college for years now, I can never keep a steady job (nor relationship), I'm a poster child for bi-polar/schizophrenic/depression disorder...I've just got so much negativity going on. I've, almost literally, been trapped in my apartment for over a week, not doing anything but watching porn, talking to sexual interests about trading pics, having sexual discussions over text. Thinking about my habits, and everything that I could be, I'm disgusting myself if anything else. I just need the help and ability to stop. I know you guys understand the struggle. Hopefully you guys can be there for.
     
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  2. Hey dude. I'm new here as well. I wish you success.
     
  3. Chronic Try Hard

    Chronic Try Hard Fapstronaut

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    Well I guess everyone here at NoFap have all had his or her fair share of pain and dread. I'm glad you could make it here today and take he first step to turning your life around towards success. I am too, and I hope that you will find the strength and willpower to overcome your addiction. Just I hope to myself. All of us here at NoFap are here to support you and guide you through your journey, both through all the joys, as well as the deepest of pains. Trey urge you to never give up and that one day I might catch you on the flipside. Never quit matey:cool:!
     
  4. Chronic Try Hard

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    lol it also appears I don't speak good engrish. :p Poor typing skills have always been a nack of mine.
     
  5. ItaliTrey

    ItaliTrey Fapstronaut

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    I just literally thought you were saying my name, which ironically is Trey haha! Thanks for the words of encouragement. I've been 'stopping' for years now. I want this to be the death of my PMO.
     

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