Hi 29 y/o newbie here

Hi everyone. Nice to meet you all.
I'm 29 years old and I started viewing porn before I was 9. I don't remember exactly the age but I remember being very young. This has been a great Problem all my life. Although I managed to recover temporarily in special circumstance ( where I would not have access to Internet and television) I have never managed to recover fully. I'm married and I have a 1 year baby so I really need to overcome this addiction Wich is the stupidest of all, sincerely.
I've been for the last 9 years trying to stop porn addiction. I made several 10 day vipassana meditation courses, I made a 90 days isolated retreat and in this circunstances was more easy to stop PMO. I already "tasted" the glory of it. But this makes even worse the fact that every time the urge comes it's only a matter of time until I go back to the PMO habit. Usually I stay a couple of weeks "clean" before I engage in this heavy burden habit again. It's just a matter of time.
Because I have been fighting with this for the last 9 years, I developed some toleration for not being "hard" on me to really stop PMO. My biggest obstacle is the desire/lust for women, wich I really don't think it's mine, but something that the society inflicted on me.
Of course lust it's like the kryptonite for Superman, and porn her naughty daughter. That's what I feel, if you know what I mean.
I'm going for a 90 days challenge and I hope I can make it while being in contact with the Internet.
I am really happy that finally there is a platform like noFap to help all the "lost soldiers" of this battle. Now there is hope, because together we can make it.

 

Sure brother. I'm on it. Let's do this!