Hi all

Discussion in 'New to NoFap' started by Deleted Account, Sep 3, 2019.

  1. I want to introduce myself shortly:
    I‘m 22 and watch porn for 8 – 10 years. I was a very shy boy/young man and so I had not that much contact to woman in my life until now. But i was always really horny and so I used pornography to deal with my desires. I had two short relationships with a girl when I was sixteen, but we had no sex, only some petting. I was a virgin until one week before my 20th birthday, on that day I decided to visit a prostitute to be no virgin anymore. That gets one of my bad habits and I visited around 30 prostitutes until now, because I always thought this is real sex and better then watching pornography. It is, but it is really expensive (in my country it is legal). I felt always full of anxiety, I didn‘t like myself and was not self-confident. I always compared myself with others and only see their good attributes and compared them with my bad. Not sure what I want to do in life and who I want to be. I was depressed often and started abusive use of pornography, alcohol and cannabis to deal with my feelings. Sometime I was also thinking about suicide. Because of all these problems I‘m visiting a psychologist for about one year now and the diagnosis may be bipolar disorder. I‘m not sure if this is true. I tryed out many dating apps to get to know woman because I was to shy to get to know someone from scratch. I had sex with some of the woman, but most of them were really unattractive to me and it was just a „better then nothing“ decision. I know for a long time that my bad habits prevent me from having a good life so I often tryed to stop watching porn and using alcohol and so on, but it never worked and after some days I fall back and thought I will never made it. I don‘t take any drugs for one month now (especially no cigaretts, cannabis and alcohol) and now I want to deal again with my pornography addiction. I usally think I quit masturbating now for ever and after some days I get so horny and depressed thinking about that pornography exist and I get no women to have sex with so I start watching porn for hours with the goal that it is the last time and so I can enjoy it really and need to watch many kinds of categories and actors because its „the last time“. Until now it was never the last time. I always thought it is a sign of weakness if I don‘t deal with it alone, but this is stupid. I want to use this community as a opportuinity to motivate me, share my experiences and problems and also to help others.

    Have a great day and carry on!
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  2. Hello and welcome! :)

    We are glad to have you as a part of our community. Here are some quick links to get you started.

    Getting Started Guide | How to Use the NoFap Forums | Panic Button | Day Counter | Rebooting Resources | Forum Rules | Glossary

    If you wish to keep a journal of your progress you can do so in the appropriate section found here

    You can also take part in one of the many challenges available. It can be a tremendous help. Challenges

    Also, there are groups you can also join if you wish to do so. You can browse through them here. Groups

    There are plenty of wonderful, friendly and knowledgeable people here to help you along on your journey to a life free of PMO. I wish you nothing but the best!
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  3. Heyyy welcome to the NoFap forum : ) It's nice to see you here fighting the good fight alongside us!

    Here is just some advice:

    First and foremost please take a look at each section in the forum, there might be something(s) you may find of big help to you. Feel free to post there :+)

    Then secondly I just strongly advise you to be active on your profile(as there quite a few active people in the profile section). Please start by choosing an avatar and then make daily status posts to show you're active and needing support/encouragement. They've also got a neat little feature that shows freshly posted statuses for all users to see. People will find your profile and give you encouragement/support.

    People (are beginning to) love communicating in the profile section..(it should be and is )mostly spportive talk but it doesn't hurt to deviate from supportive talk. It would be great to have you join in and support others in the threads, profiles, and journal, we could always use your help and in return you shall receive some as well!

    Thirdly, You should also highly consider creating a public journal and write about your days in more depth for us members to follow along your journey and offer support to you by way of posting in your journal.

    Last but not least: Good luck on your journey here, make sure to really give it a try with all your heart!

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