Hi all!

Hi everyone!

New fapstronaut here about to start my first PM reboot! Really nervous but excited to be in the community and get better. A bit about myself: I'm 20, from the UK, love music (mostly pop, rock, alternative etc) and love trains (hence the name!) I like to go trainspotting when I can as its something I've done from a very young age!

I guess I'd like this to be an AMA (Ask Me Anything) kind of vibe so if anyone has any questions fire away!

Have a lovely weekend

 

It sure is a long story ahaha. I'm not happy about my story, but I'll explain why I always sound happy shortly as there is a reason behind it.

Long story short I've been addicted to porn since around 11-12

Spoiler: TW - Sexual assault

when I was sexually assaulted by a girl who I had known for a few weeks. This same girl showed me my first porn video and

from then till about 2 years ago I was unknowingly hooked on it. My relationship with my partner came very close to the brink of collapse when my addiction got out of hand and I made a very conscious effort then to stop watching any porn with other people in it. I reset a few times but been doing pretty well for a little while now. I've joined the community as I'm looking at doing a PM reboot. Even though I don't want to watch porn with other people in it, the idea of porn still lingers in my head, and I want to work on rewiring my brain out of that mindset, as I still feel immense amounts of guilt now about what I put my partner through.

The story why I sound happy is a completely different topic together! Once again, another long story short,

Spoiler: TW - Mention of drugs / Overdose

I used to be very heavily addicted to drugs, namely ecstasy. One night I overdosed quite heavily by myself, to the point that I really shouldn't have survived it.

From then, my mindset has been that I am so incredibly lucky to be here. No matter what life has thrown at me since, I've always approached everything with positivity and optimism! Don't get me wrong I still feel negativity a lot (I'm a healthcare student so theres plenty of it to go around lmao,) but I accept it in my stride and do the best I can. Example: I am quite scared about starting my reboot, and joining the community, but I'm remaining positive because I know there's an end where my brain is completely porn-free, and all the benefits that come with it!