Hi everyone :)

Hey, I'm Ashton and I'm a porn addict... It probably sounds blunt for a 13-year-old to say, but it's, unfortunately, the truth.

I guess I should explain my story a bit. I don't remember the exact age I started watching porn but I think it was as early as age 8 or 9. As soon as I started watching it I knew that I shouldn't be doing it and I needed to stop but even then, I couldn't. All I felt was pleasure and I while I knew that I needed to stop, I also knew that another part of me wanted more. In the past two or so years, I've noticed that I am completely numb to any natural sexual arousal and occasionally I have considered myself asexual because sometimes I feel so numb to it. Also, during the times when I don't feel so numb, I feel more attracted to other males than females. I don't want to feel this way, I want to be heterosexual, I want to like girls. I've been attracted to many girls in the past when I was younger, but not so much anymore. I want that back. I am hoping that this 90-day Hard Mode Reboot I am going to start today will help me get that back and help me feel better, get rid of some of the anxiety that I cause myself when I watch porn, and also the depression afterward. In short, I just want to feel better as everyone else on this site does. I hope to get to know some of you on here and get better together.

 

Thank you!

 

Thank you! I'm glad that there are people around my age here.

Thank you very much.