Hi guys

Hi, I'm a 23 yo student and my English is not perfect so excuse me in advance.

I decided to stop porn because it took all my time for do something else.
I couldnt focus on something without thinking about when I will fap the next time. And it used to make me angry, less sociable, I passed a lot of time in my house instead of go out, even for a little running.

I eated less, talked less to people, had some negative thoughts about some of my friends for no reasons. I was a little insecure too.

And with girls, it wasn't always easy.

I'm a good looking guy, I'm social, make jokes and I have some sollicitations from women but sometimes I felt like I didnt deserve those girls because they were "too correct".
Porn litterally changed my way to interact with women, I used to interact with women who didnt have real goals in life, just for having sex with them. I don't juge those girls but I think I deserve a girl who wants a futur and who have goals. I used to think I didnt deserve this kind of girl and used to be anxious when I flirted with this kind of lady.
I realised that for like two years, porn totally changed my way to see women and that I talked to girls just for sex and not for really know how they were. It's sad.
Sometimes I had affinities with some girls and I just thought about having sex with them while they really wanted something serious. And it messed a lot of relations.

I was enough with all these things because I think I deserve more than a insecure life in wich my vision and my thoughts are distorted by some toxic films.

So I stopped porn/masturbating/edge for one week now. It's not very difficult for the moment. I just can notice that I wake up in a good mood and earlier than usual, my mind is clear but I also sleep a lot, I don't know if it's normal lol.
I'm gone for at least two months in the soft mode (I plan to have some sexual relations tough).

Thank you guys for reading this and cheers. I think I will post a message every sunday. See You soon.

 

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