I remember as teen first realizing that PM was something that I couldn't easily control -- it was terrible. I've been struggling, though functional, for more than 30 years. I think the most I've been able to abstain is about 2 months. I have been looking for help so long and I've finally found my way to this site. Although I'm almost 50, I dream of a new start on life where I'm intimate with the wife that I love and my creative energy isn't sapped by porn. Today is the first step.
Welcome and all the best on your journey. Visualize what your life will look like without this burden. Keep the end in mind. Journal it here if that helps you see it and understand it.
Welcome. We all understand how difficult this issue is to address and those of us married know the toll it takes on our spouse and our relationship. You can do this. It takes a lot of hard work, but is so worth it for you, your wife and your relationship. Best wishes.
I am proud of you for writing this and being honest with yourself. We are all here to support you and help you get well.
