Hopelessness because of pmo addiction

Hello

Im a 25 yr old with a good goverment job, ok looks good sense humor and seems like everything is set just fine.

However my addiction to porn is too much for my shoulders I desperately installed all the web porn blokers i could on my phone and have failed to do the one at home because im able to recover the password and binge. Read many things of the negative effects of pmo and any addiction and I just cant seem to get it straight, last night I masturbated twice and today once at work, I feel like the only way out is to get tied to a bed where i cannot reach down to grab my dick. I went to a AA 12 step program and felt like god is the only one that could give me the will power however I relapse, my longest streak was 32 days and I just feel I could use some advise. God is always there to help me but it is just so hard and it is making me feel hopeless. I wish one day I could write a success story of many years going without pmo guys.

My start pmoing was when I was 10yrs old and have not been able to quit, this is the root of all my other addictions like alcohol and cigarretes, I know accepting is the first step but man why the fuck im starting to go crazy by it.

 

I appreciate it septimus,
I want to undergo this journey for once and for all, are there any good phone porn blocking apps that would completely keep me from accessing it? I have found that even the ones I got I could go to administrator and dissable them, almost like an alcoholic that knows he could undo the liquor cabinet, I need it completely unaccesible for a while until I have more control. Any input welcome.