HOW MY PORN ADDICTION EVOLVED

Okay, hello everyone! I hope you're all having a great time, and I would like to tell you my experience with porn and how it evolved over time.

So it first here is me a regular kid, about 10, my mom is working the laptop is free to use. And here I am deciding to watch some porn, without even knowing how to clear history. Having a paranoid mother doesn't help.

I watch the porn, jerk off in about a split second, enjoy what I saw and carry on with my day.

After that I play a few pornography games, as they are hard to spot, and no one can really find out.
And that dirty feeling that you forget, when you first watch porn. Its extremely strange, I can only remember the slight moment, of being a casual kid, opening up porn, fapping off and feeling dirty as anything, like my energy just poured out of me. Over time I watch movies, sometimes porn. Internet is hard to access so I use different solutions. But my mastirbating continues.

One time we Sat with my mom watching a movie, and there was a sex scene. And here is me behind her trying to jerk off without her seeing. Eventually I left the room, but it still didn't finish time. No one found out.

I'm 18 move in on my own, finally after 8 years of working around porn, I can watch it EVERY DAY and have the pleasure all to myself.

So I got all this time on my hands, and so I watch porn. Day after day, it gets more and more, eventually 3 masturbations daily, yeah I know right. Sometimes even more.

Eventually time comes, when I'm bored of watching the same porn. So I look for all different types. Then I get into all these different fetishes from whipping to some discussing ass porn.
Shit gets wild. And so it went on, even to old ladies, which I find absurdly discussing now.

And that's where it lead to, desire for more, no one knows where it could have lead to, to forfill that desire of pleasure. No one.

Now I'm 6 days in, it's the end of the day. And I'm happy not to watch porn, before I started nofap I thought what the hell is my purpose for it?

Now I know, it's to be more creative, have more confidence. And after writing all that it shows even more reasons why I need stop.

Thanks to anyone that read this.
Lukas.