Hey everyone, I'm Alt. Indie. You can call me AI, Alt, Indie, whatever you want tbh, I don't mind as long as you're able to get my attention. I'm 22, male, bi, and I've been watching porn since forever. I know I got my first shitty little phone at 12, and used to look up porn pics because my phone wasn't able to play videos. But I do remember even before I had my first phone, hopping onto my older brother's computer and visiting the porn sites he had in his search history. He's 10 years older than me, so he had some good kinky stuff. But that was once in a blue moon since he rarely let me in his room. Which was wise, as you could guess. But since I had a mobile device of my own, fapping was an everyday thing unless it was physically impossible for me to do so (Which was rare, but sleep overs at a friend house really being the only exception). Ever since I started working my current job two years ago, I've been pretty pooped. It's been easy for me to just work and sleep considering it's 12 hour shifts. But even then I'm still able to override my cheat method and fap by depriving myself of sleep (Embarrassingly so, I'm able to edge for a long time. Hell, I can just watch porn without fapping for over an over, but not without a happy ending) or just making up for it until I'm sore on my days off. Porn has been a painful distraction and I think it's finally time to come to terms with it. My personal business/projects with my friends have taken a hit from my porn addition and youtube addition (This latter addition not being porn related but an addition nontheless). I've created very successful forums with friends and have my own YT channel that isn't successful, but can't grow if I don't have time to devote to it because I'm either, working, sleeping, or fapping. What I aim to gain out of NoFap is the ability to say no to addition in general. Porn and YouTube are by far my largest addictions and need to be dealt with. In addition, I think this program would be good for me because whenever I am sexually involved, I have trouble finishing without porn playing in the background. It's gotten to the point when I'm actively passing off on sexual opportunities because I know I wont be able to enjoy myself and be a disappointment for my partner, or at least, probably make them feel like it's their fault when in actuality, it's just me. Sorry for the rant, but that's my introduction. I hope I can make the best out of this and not just relapse without intending too. I want to be able to fap with a reasonable interval between faps. I'm thinking weeks to a month maybe. I'm young and don't think I need to never fap or stop watching porn completely. With that said, I'm going to start with the 7 day NoFap challenge! Oh, and I found this site through the Orange is the New Black scene. It just sparked my curiosity so I looked it up and here I am literally minutes after watching the scene.
Hello and welcome to the community. I advise you to stop porn completely. An addict can't control how much porn he watches and you will be in this bad situation again...
Welcome Here Alt.Indie. I'm new here too, and I can relate to a fair amount of your situation. I do know that we all need each other here, to reach our goals and to overcome the issues that we have. We need to encourage each other. So as one new Fapstronaut to another, welcome here, and I wish you all the best in your journey!
