I’m completely empty now. I really enjoyed my job. I loved my relationship. Life was good. Everything is crumbling around me because of this addiction. I feel so sick. I’m in desperate need of help. I need to find a sponsor. I just don’t know what to do anymore. I haven’t been acting out lately but my denial, my complacency, and my arrogance have all led to further damage to my life. This was never worth it. I just want one more good day. I just want one happy time again. I want my girlfriend to love me. I can’t do this on my own but I’ve hurt the one closest to me. I’ve lost my girlfriend and my two best friends. I’m going to lose my co-workers who have been so kind to me on bad days. Who seem to care about me. This addiction takes everything. EVERYTHING. Please...if you have a chance, PLEASE stop it before you end up like me.