I am about to start my Journey!

Hello everybody! Since 15 I'm addicted to pornography and masturbation. Now I'm 21 years old and I am strongly determined to change. About 100 times i tried to quit masturbation and pornography, but I was to weak. The biggest pause was 30 days without it, but sadly in the end, I lost this fight. I felt super great at that 30 day period without pornography and masturbation. Now everything completely changed. Quarantine, online job, studies. I was spending almost all of my free time between four walls. My addiction became more and more strong. I wasn't able to control myself, I forgot about my hobbies. I have a smart, hot and beautifull girlfriend. Sadly, my relationship and sexual life changed into a bad side. I am feeling tired for almost all the time. I started to forget things. My vision is blurred for all the time. I have diffuculties to maintain eye contact and communicate with people. I am 100% sure it is because of pornography and masturbation. I am feeling like an animal that can't control himself. Today I installed program that tracks and blocks any kind of pornography from my computer and phone. Today, like never, I willing to change. I need to get out of this pit, because i don't want to lose my beautifull girlfriend, I need to finish university and live happy and fulfilled life. I am sure, that I won't be able to do that when I am addicted. Guys, share experiences, how you overcome this addiction, what really helped to you. Maybe this will help to me. Let's motivate each other, together we can live a normal and happy life. Have a nice day!

 

Hello my friend. What kind of mediation techniques you are using? Maybe you have a links or something. Never tried mediation before.

 

I am feeling strong like never. Let's do this togehter!

 

Thank you so much!

Thank you my friend!