A few years ago, while still in my addiction, I was searching for porn, and I came across some sissy porn. And I got hard. At first I was like “WTF why am i hard from seeing men in women’s panties and lingerie?”, but I just went for it. Thus began a journey into seeking out images of cute crossdressers. I never told anyone about it, especially my wife of 20 years. What kind of conversation would that be like “Honey, a funny thing happened while I was searching for porn… I discovered I’m bi-curious” It eventually subsided and I stopped looking for it. In this sissy porn era, I talked with many men online about it, and found that I wasn't alone at become bi-curious later in life, or being aroused by sissy porn (or both). I think it's far more common than I realize.
That was the porn, not you. It's called escalation. You start watching some sort of porn, but then you become accustomed to it, and bored by it. So you look for something kinkier, to get the same thrill you originally got. Eventually you end up watching stuff you'd never dreamt of watching previously. Those porn-induced tastes often fade with abstinence. There are a ton of sissy porn threads here, including something called "sissy hypno" which is some of the most soul-destroying stuff ever. But most of the sissy porn users speak of porn that encourages them to take the feminine role with a man. It sounds like you were into something different.
