This is something that I really miss. I'm 28 now. BUt when I was like 19-20 in college I had a GF and we slept together in the same bed. Of course we did other things too but sometimes I really miss the sleeping together. Thats one thing I could never got from P---. I could have an O to a video and be with "that side" of the woman. But then I don't get to kiss my GF or hold her or any of that good stuff. I actually enjoyed "cuddling" with her although I'm not sure that is the masculine way to say it I haven't really dated since I was 21. And not shared a bed with someone since 19-20. That is one thing P--- will never give me back. In college it was a little easier to meet a female and then spend nights together since we were on the same campus and stuff. But now that I'm 28 it probably takes some time to build the closeness and trust with a person. Let alone prepare myself for being with a person in that way again. I guess it might happen one day. To have this close of a relationship with a GF. There might be lots of females who also crave this sort of relationship and want to be held at night as much as I want to hold someone. Also it would be nice to have a GF to go for walks with. I always walk alone. Didn't even really find walking buddies. Thats another thing P--- can't provide me. P--- doesn't come with me when I get off the computer (besides in my mind's eye). I hope I can recover enough to have an intimiate relationship.