I need change

No i'm not particularly happy with who I am as a person. I don't like crowded rooms, I don't like being made fun of, I get intimidated by people easily because I feel i'm short, I'm insecure, I spend too much time on the computer and I'm not that popular. It sounds really sad saying that, and I hate admitting that these things are true, but I'm proud of myself for admitting that they are true. Every day I struggle with not being happy with who I am as a person and seeing everyone else around me lead more fulfilling and interesting lives. Every day however, I also try to improve myself in some way because what's the point in living if you aren't trying to grow as a person. Instead of shying away from my problems and allowing myself to remain in comfortable stasis I want to challenge myself to improve and become better as a person. Sometimes feel cynical looking at how many times i've tried to change my life and how many times i've failed, but I know I need to keep trying or my life will come to nothing. For me, nofap is part of this struggle to improve.

I created this account to try to build in some accountability into my nofap challenge. I have tried nofap before but have always caved in to the urges of years of habitual porn watching. I hope this time I can be stronger and have better success at resisting these habits.