i approach this process, after a lifetime of addiction, with the hope that in community I can make the changes I must. I’m a leader in my community and I’ve kept secret my PA, for fear that it would compromise my life. But now it is compromising my relationship with my SO and I can’t cause her to suffer anymore. Also, I just don’t want to live like this anymore. Here is to new beginnings.
It's a great thing when somebody stands up, knowing, feeling that something has to be changed. I wish you lots of love and peace for the heart and the mind.
You can do it, but not for her. If she leaves will you go back to PA? Dig deep and break free from the porn. Find a reason to do it that has no choice.
That’s a point well made. I don’t want to think what I would do if she left me, but if it’s just about satisfying others, I can always say, “maybe I can just do a better job of keeping it secret”. Of course, that never works. But if it is about controlling my desires and disciplining my life, than it’s about satisfying myself in a way that evades lies.
