I notice that i have an inclination to PMO mostly when i feel sad/miserable because i don't have full control over my life. i have manipulative parents and my whole life sucks because they have been controlling me since i was young. It destroyed my childhood to my teenage years and i was mostly inept at almost everything since every action i had to do was because they allowed me to. I spent years trying to remove its clutches over me and i think i'm nearly free (well almost). It's just that as time goes on i am realizing that the only way for me to be fully out of it's control is to use violence as they never really listen nor do they respect me. It might sound like what i'm saying here is not related to PMO, but actually i've been miserable under these people and that PMO is one of the problems they caused by controlling my entire life.
