Its that simple, i want someone to care for me. I don't get enough attention in my life, (probably its the story of every person struggling with loneliness). My parents think of me as a disappointment and a fool, i have a small circle of friends because i'm not good at dealing with people. I'm suffering in my career prospects and now im suffering with my nofap progress. Even i have become a failure in my own eyes. Life aint easy when you keep on loosing and no one is there to cheer you up. When you keep thinking negatively, the dopamine rush of porn feels like a relief. I know that how hard it will hit at the end but i want to feel that rush just because i haven't felt the rush of succeeding in life. I think that i (and probably you) will become successful in this journey when i learn to care for me myself and taste the bite of victory for the first time. Its easy to say but its really hard to do because my mind will always try to get the easiest and fastest way possible. Its going on with me for 2 years and i didn't knew why it happened to me.