I relapsed just an hour ago, I felt extremely down, tired, self-abused, guilty, shameful... This is not my first regret, I tried to control myself, stopped to relapse this karma again and again. But there is always a billion of reasons to watch those disgusting videos when I was tempted. I really want to stop. This is my new start but with NoFap this time. I hope that this will change my entire life and become a confident, healthy, and forceful person. Wish me good luck. Sorry for my bad English anyway.