Im 22 and I want to leave it

Hi guys.

Im 22 and I have been fighting my fap addiction for years.
Im looking for some accountability in my life. Im
going full cold turkey.

I just signed up. Im hoping this will be the way out
I have been looking for.

Any advice or help will be well recieved.

So from now April 17, 2014 Im shooting for the gold.

 

Staying strong so far. I noticed about myself that I
have compulsive behavior. So I hatched a plan.

I purchased a food I love. It turned out to be a candy bar.
And I made it a goal that I would eat that candy bar every night if
I had not used porn or fapd or edged. Believe me, when Im reading
my bible at night the candy bar taste like a million bucks. And when
i get the urge I just see that box of candy bars and I get a will to fight
on.

These passed two days of have been rough. Yesterday I had to
take a long cold shower to get rid of the urge. I noticed its
not the water that helps but its in fact the mindset when you
are in the shower.

thanks for the support!!!
Ill keep posting by what happens!

 

How to last longer than 7 days

I bombed today. It all started yesterday after I took a nap. I had a wet dream and I woke up really horny. Its all embarrassing. It was not like i planned go look at porn and masturbate today. It was tiny steps. After I woke up I started thinking of an old girl. And that girl led to more thoughts. It lead me to have some extreme urges to masturbate. I started to masturbate then I stopped myself. But its the slippery slope. One thing led to another and I bombed.

Im not quiting this. This week has honestly been super tough but at the same time its been the best week of my life. The freedom you get from saying no.

If you guys have any advice how to last longer than 7 days please help. Im restarting my counter again.
Last masturbation and porn was on April 15th 2014 @ 10:00 A.M. Im shooting for never doing it again.

 

I failed again today. I keep on failing. I am not giving up. I will not give up. I know
Jesus will get me through this. Honestly everything fell apart in my life. The girl I liked
just dumped me when she found out I am fighting this addiction. I got an exam back with an F.
And I cannot find a job for the summer. Its like the whole world has turned against me. But you
know what. I realized the world is out to get me down. Most people around me who I asked for help
just leave. The world will want me down in the dirt. But I will fight. Im not human if I fight.
I am a machine if I let the world control and direct me every which way it pleases. If i dont fight
i feel like there is no meaning to life. Just a waste of time.

These are the thoughts that are going through me head right now guys. Idk if anyone really reads
this. But this is me telling everyone out there. That I will fight for my freedom.

 

I bombed today. I bombed twice. Its my choice. I am to blame that I did this. I will overcome with Jesus's help. If i want something i must take it. Take my salvation. Take my life back. No one can take it back for me. I must battle it out and win.

 

yea im back. I keep on messing up. idk why. just mess up. hopeful 37 out.