Hey everyone, I've been interested in NoFap for close to a year now and have been scratching the surface of research and watching youtube videos of countless success stories of the Fapstronauts. You could say I've been observing from the sidelines (benchwarmer) but haven't taken the initiative to fully commit (or even sign up). I've realized I had a porn addiction problem for close to a few years now and thought it was the norm and everybody was doing it so it's okay. Slowly I began to realize PMO is not okay and there are peers in my age group that are light years ahead of me on every spectrum of life goals. I'm in my mid-30s now and have considered PMO my "me time" ever since I was 13. I thought it was just a healthy way to release but I noticed as the years passed I began to PMO more frequently. I wouldn't consider myself an ugly dude however I've been rejected most of my life (just bad luck I guess) and laughed it off and gave up trying to find a partner to love and settle down with. So these repeated rejections just made me grasp harder onto PMO, imagery, videos throughout my life. I fear it has done quite a bit of damage to my brain (hopefully reverseable). I have experienced first-hand the withdrawal symptoms of PMO and they are unpleasant especially when I could not sleep on Day 4 or 5. Maximum personal counter I had was day 7 then I relapse. I am ready to conquer my addiction and stop making excuses and go beyond that 7 day threshold. I realized PMO has ruined my personal and professional life and my family doesn't have a clue that I'm addicted to it. I don't want to tell them due to embarrassment,shame, and the worry that they will blame each other for my mistake. Maybe one day I will tell them once I recover from PMO. They just think I'm depressed or something and just try to act normal around me and try to motivate me to keep going. I am pretty sure I lost a high paying job due to always PMO'ing the night before the workdays. My mind would be cloudy at work, I wouldn't bother taking initiative, I'd be very irritable to my coworkers over the most trivial things so I was let go eventually when I didn't change. I've completely deleted every bit of porn I ever had in my life. It was an organized collection by porn actresses,genre,softcore,hardcore and so forth. It felt like a weight has lifted off my entire body. I would even go as far as considering this addiction a form of a negative dark-side energy (Stars Wars Lingo). This dark energy is very inviting however it is so destructive in every aspect of one's life and their friends and family. I've realized I need a support group and I'm reaching out to all of you for your support. No one knows I have a porn addiction but myself and this forum. I know it's not going to be easy and I have touched up on concepts of sexual transmutation and finding meaningful things to do with my leisure time. I currently need to improve my professional life and need to take leaps, not steps. I feel like I missed out on so many opportunities. The more I think about porn addiction, the more it seems like a really horrible drug which you use and abuse and then pass out afterwards like a junkie would. I don't want to be a porn junkie anymore. I need to quit this crap and finally start my life. Hence my name =) Cheers to all of you and may you achieve all the greatness that life has to offer!
Welcome to NoFap @NewFoundManV20. You'll find many helpful things on this site, such as challenges you can work your way through, helpful tips from people going through the same thing as you, and success stories from people who have made a great deal of progress. Search around and let yourself become familiar with all the aspects of NoFap.
Hello hence, i just have readed your Story ! What an amazing story and conviction! I replied to your thread cause i wanted to know some News Update about your PMO addiction How did it go? Did you succeded removing this addiction from your life? Did life got better? Did you find a Girl/Wifey o a high payed job? Keep me updated please. And also i wanted to clear out some points: You did not get rejected because of Ugliness nor Bad luck. but because of PMO, when you PMO you lowers your "Sex Appeal Energy", and Girls can Feel your "Sex Appeal" while we guys don't feel it. So a guy that is not Addicted to PMO is way more attractive to Girls and has lower chances of rejections than a guy who's highly addicted. So the Vibe of a guy who isn't addicted is way more attractive for Girls than a Guy who have serious addiction to Porn. Even if you think that they don't notice that, it's just a Lie. The vibe is Real, and girls can feel it that's the reason of your Rejections. Also, PMO guys have a bad Vibe, and people don't like them and don't wanna spend time with them cause they look boring/dumb/ and not fun to get around, that's why you didn't found great jobs/and parnters and why not: Love. All good luck bro. and please keep me updated !
If you read about porn addiction you learn it can be more addictive than alcohol, drugs or other addictions. Hard, if not impossible to recover on your own. This site is great and lots of support from the community. You may want to join one of the NoFap groups, seek a therapist, link with an accountability partner or some of the way to get direct support so you are not trying to do this alone. Best wishes.
