Im fighting for my life

Discussion in 'Porn Addiction' started by fusion47, Nov 10, 2021.

  1. fusion47

    fusion47 Fapstronaut

    This addiction has taken so many things from me. I did gross things to my body, sent pictures of myself to guys and trans people, i lost my first kiss to a trans person (i dont know what i was thinking) and ive seen way too many naked people. Not even including illegal stuff, which makes me sick. How can i even move on from the fact that i did all of this? Even when i was doing them, it made me sick. Even worse is that im Christian. Should I just end it? I cant imagine any girl would want a guy who has done these revolting actions
  2. Witherd_rose

    Witherd_rose Fapstronaut

    I also think of ending this life. But you end it then your suffering is of now use. From every suffering we learn something . Every morning is a second chance .
    porn destroyed my life . My life was torn apart by pmo . But every morning i wake up with the hope for a new life.
    This suffering will make you a new man. Its not the destination its the journey that moulds you. So don't give up.!
  3. himalayan_samurai

    himalayan_samurai New Fapstronaut

    If things have gone that far that you want to end it, maybe try taking cyproterone. It is an anti androgen which helps to reduce sexual libido. No, you won't become infertile, just wont have libido until you stop taking the meds. Maybe it will help you to have a few months streak which will fix your trans situation.
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  4. Cut the shitty crappy self help quotes. I bet you feel terrible atm. I did too. I was there too or I could always be there again but always remeber this is not you! You are not the stuff you watched or watch atm. Not the stuff you did or do. It must feel terrible that you lost ur first kiss to a person you probably didnt want to loose the first kiss and that you sent pictures to strangers and you will mourn this lost chances and bad decisions later in recovery but always remember that you the pure you is better than your past.
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  5. I like the simple advice someone gave me once, "Start from where you are." Of course we all wish we could go back and change this, change that, but life is not that easy. We muddle through, sometimes making bad decisions, not fully understanding the consequences of our choices. But this past does not have to define you. The past does not equal the future. We can heal and grow and put our life to some kind of positive use, both for ourselves and for others. It is possible to move forward friend.
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  6. DeeJ4y

    DeeJ4y Fapstronaut

    If you are christian you should know that you are forgiven when you repent. God bless you.
  7. Lost Hope

    Lost Hope Fapstronaut

    Join Christian Fapstronauts group, maybe you will find what you are looking for. Since i joined, i started to get better..., healed?! far from it! But progress is progres.
  8. Kevodrag

    Kevodrag Fapstronaut

    Like someone said above, our past doesn’t define our present, nor should it define our future.
    Please, understand that this is a tough fight, possibly the toughest you’ll ever fight.
    Don’t give up, keep learning from your past, build your mental resilience and toughness to fight through it, and whatever resources you think can help you in this fight, use them.
    Keep a picture of the future you want in mind, and fight to achieve that picture, every day!
    Wish you the best
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  9. PierreBezukhov

    PierreBezukhov Fapstronaut

    On my worst days when everything seems hopeless, when there is no light and I would rather just end everything it helps to realize that there is no other way than forward. If ur not going to commit suicide then you might as well make the most of life while it lasts. What I'm saying is that giving anything but your very best is not good enough. If I didn't I might as well just kill myself now, because living this half-life is not worth it..
  10. Everybody made things that they are not proud of and would do differntly if they had another chance. You live now and you have a choice to make. You can live in your past and not let go of it or live in the moment. If you choose to live in the past, you will ruin your present and your future, as it was a past you are not happy with. You can't change the past. You can change the present and you can change the future. So use your mind on things you have control over and get your power back!
  11. Don'tLookBack

    Don'tLookBack Fapstronaut

    Hey man, I feel you and feel free to reach out to me if you ever need, all of us who are sincerely trying to overcome our addictions need to support each other. Believe me, there are plenty of people here that have done things and seen horrible things. I have fallen into the pit of despair many times because of some of the things I've done, and despair is the polar opposite of hope. You are here because you want to change. That says A LOT about you. Trust me, holding onto your past will only make the darkness increase ten fold. You believe in Christ. I do too. He saved me, and I would not be alive right now if it weren't for Him. Trust and rely on Him, and build that relationship. He knows your pain and your anguish. He knows your regrets and your shame. He is on your side. Pray to God for strength and direction. He knows the way out. You are worth it, man. Please know that. You hate your past right now. I completely and fully understand that dark feeling. I came to this conclusion for myself: If I make the decision to end my life today, then the only past that I have is the one I have right now. And I don't want to go out that way. But if I continue to live and reshape my life into one that I am proud of living, then when I am on my deathbed, I can look back on my life and be proud of my life.
    And about the doubt that a girl would want you. I promise you, you can change your life around. And if you do, any girl who is actually loving and who actually knows who you really are (someone who wants to better themselves and become the best version of themselves), will embrace you.
    I can't convince you what to do with your life, but I really hope you choose the path of hope in Christ and true inner change. You've got this!
  12. Warwick

    Warwick Fapstronaut

    Is there someone you trust you can talk with?,..maybe a friend or perhaps a counsellor to help you through this time.
    The moderators here on NoFap can direct you to phone help lines or counsellors in your area.
  13. Past is a mystery and also useless. So forget it and start a new life. Every new day is a second chance. So use it wisely.

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