Intro: Cuz

Hi my name is Cuz.

I am a male and 20 years old. I currently live with 3 other male house mates the same age. I moved out of home when I was 18 to study in another city. However since being here. I have stopped my first course 2 years in, and am now failing my 2nd course that i switched into because I have no motivation. I have no idea what I want to do with my life and I feel as if I have just been studying pointless degrees just to please my family. I want to do something different with my life but I don't know what.

I deal with mild OCD and a history of depression. This lack of motivation has also put me back into a depressive state. I spend most of my waking hours gaming and have little interaction with people. I used to be very outgoing and social, but now I just want to game. This has caused me to become very overweight and unfit as well.

I have been watching porn since I was about 14 and starting masturbating earlier than that. I currently watch porn about 3 times a week and masturbate about 5-12 times a week. I have never had a proper relationship, but have had sex with about 9 different women, most of them being one-night stands. I have trouble with objectifying women and constantly thinking about sex when speaking with them. I feel like eliminating porn, and maybe masturbating would help with this. I am confident that I could stop watching porn, because it is not always necessary for me to jerk using it. But in-terms of stopping masturbating, I feel like that would be impossible.

Anyway this is just me opening up to some strangers on the internet because I was asked to haha.

I appreciate what you guys are doing.

Cuz