Hi, I'm new to Nofap. This is now day 3 with a big challenge ahead. I was searching for porn online when I accidentally found nofap. When I started reading some of the info here it really hit on the consequences of the PMO cycle I'm in. I'm 58 years old (yip, an old guy). For many years I've gone through cycles on PMO, quitting, then falling back into the cycle. I have had an amazing life but the cycle of PMO is definitely affecting things. Intimacy with my partner, my ability to feel pleasure in all aspects, not just sex, numbness, shame etc... All I know is I have to full-on stop. I have an inner voice that makes excuses, and that worries me. Excuses, minimizing things, not seeing the big picture and normalizing it all. I had a major adventure sports accident 3 years ago that has had a major impact on my life. It also provided an excuse to indulge and binge in porn. I hate this feeling and know it all has to stop. I will need to really stay strong to get through this. I have done a lot of self-work and have a strong sense of self. I am also very spiritual (not religious). When I am in the PMO cycle I feel like a gigantic hypocrite and fraud. I don't want to lose my life to my addiction. This is a short intro. Of course, the story is much bigger. I'm hoping to stay strong. Thanks so much.
