is failing okay

I think failing is okay if you learn something from it. Why did you lose your streak? What were your triggers? Is there something productive you could have done instead of watch porn?

 

My journey over 30+ years trying to beat this thing has included countless attempts and failures. I'm an addict and relapse has been part of my story.

As @I_Am_Strong_54 mentioned, learning from my mistakes is what I've done each and every time...even after a long, drawn out binge. I've always tried my best to reflect on the causes and conditions of my actions. Can I identify triggers, patterns, or anything else that may have contributed to my downfall? If so, what can I work on this time that may help to prevent such a downfall?

What I've learned is most of my relapses started long before the actual action of relapse. I started backing away from this community and other recovery based tools I was implementing. As I became further and further away, I became sicker and sicker until I eventually relapse...and many of the relapses would take me down and even darker and more dangerous road.

That being said, I learned that consistency is key for my recovery. I must stay in the middle of a recovery community...helping others, updating my journal a few times a day, communicating daily with accountability partners, reading recovery literature, praying, meditating, exercise, adequate sleep, reading other posts within the forum and contributing where I can add value, and so on. Remaining consistent on good days and bad have proven to help me get sober and stay stopped.

Don't beat yourself up. Dust yourself off, get back on the horse, and figure out what you could've done different. Take it as part of the process to a road of recovery.

Wishing you the best!