.Im Mr. A and am a porn/masturbation addict. So I found out yesterday that the girl I was going out with is seen someone else which really did not help with my reboot/withdrawal process.I've been going through some emotional issues due to all the recovery process and... anyways I relapsed. Every time I relapse I always end up exagerating on the dose. My last challenge lasted 14 days. I relaplsed last night, PMOing twice and once again this morning. I can't explain it. It's an anxiety that takes over me and I compulsively do it.I don;t wanna deal with problems nor anything else because some kind of sadness takes over.Anybody else out there with similar issues and that would like to share? Thankyou.
I understand the compulsion. I am working a 12 step book as I stop PMO. The book is helping me to understand myself. I had a very..... interesting....childhood and I am conditioned to fear, anxiety and depression. I think that I may have used PMO to self-medicate. Thus creating compulsions. I hope you are feeling better now. Sometimes when I am on an emotional roller coaster I find the compulsion to PMO almost intolerable. When I do PMO and can do it for hours, if not days on end. Using the hit to take away all the feelings. Wishing you the very best.
Thanks for sharing brother!This addiction has gotten the best of us all man.It's time to put a stop to it.Good Luck to you in your journey.Stay strong.Good luck.
